Since this is the last TGIM we will post this year, I feel like a little reflection is needed. This year I declared war on my fears. A little over two years ago, I had a little voice in my head (which became a big voice later) that said, “you’re not where you should be.” Have you ever had that? I didn’t listen. I didn’t want to listen. I told myself to be thankful for what I had. Who wouldn’t want the life I had? I told myself that now wasn’t the right time. I told myself that I needed to make it through because I needed the money to fund the life I wanted. Every day, I struggled so much. I was negative and unhappy. I was stressed and rushed.
And then, a year ago, I broke down. On a plane coming home from a cross country business trip, I couldn’t stop crying. It was so bad that when I got to my home airport, I went to the bathroom to sob before I had to get in a taxi home. And when I got home, Becca left work to be there with me as I cried. This wasn’t the life I wanted. I just didn’t know what to do about it.
If you’ve followed along with us, you know that I did figure it out. After switching jobs and trying to make it work, it still didn’t. We saved as much money as we could and I quit. I needed both a break and a chance to follow the things I was happy and excited about. To find my voice again. There was no other way. I had to get out before I completely lost myself.
When I left my job, my life/career coach helped me with my mindset so I could be clear when I doubted myself and the fear crept back in (and it most certainly did). He asked me why I was leaving. “For me. I’m doing this for myself because I need to do it.” He asked me what I will say to the negative voice in my head when it comes, “I can do this. I need to do this. Even if it fails, it is not a failure to me. I will have tried so I won’t regret not giving it a shot later.”
My hope for you is that if you have that little voice in your head telling you to do something, you listen. You overcome the fear and don’t let it hold you back. You lean into the hope instead of the fear. I’m right here cheering you on.