For roughly the last year, almost every morning and every evening I sit and write what I am grateful for in my Five-Minute Journal. The Five-Minute Journal is a journal to help you start your day with gratitude and purpose, and end your day reflecting on all that occurred. Some days the list of what I am grateful for is so long that I write more than three. Other times I sit starring at the wall wondering why it is so difficult to name three things I am grateful for.
There is a prompt you fill out in the morning that asks you to finish the sentence “I am (blank)…” It was in one of these difficult to name three things I am grateful for days that I answered that prompt with “I am enough.”
I am enough.
The words were there on the page and I was reading them as if I hadn’t wrote them. I was shocked. I thought, where was that coming from? Am I struggling to accept who I am in this moment? Am I feeling that there is more that I should be doing? Am I feeling that I am not where I should be?
I thought about it and the answer to it all was yes. I was giving myself a hard time for struggling to list three things I am grateful for, as there is so much in my life to be grateful for how can it be hard. But it was hard and my mind wasn’t giving me any slack. My self talk in that moment was mean, it was brutal! But something in me was giving myself some slack and that caused me to write those three words.
There is always more to do or more you should be doing or more that someone else thinks you should be doing. Actually sitting down to relax – as Tiffany reminded us we all should do in this post – doesn’t come easy to me. I always feel this pull to jump up and tackle the thing that actually doesn’t really need to be done right now – but I have time so I might as well tackle it now. Because who knows what will come up in the future and thus if I have time now I should do it now and leave myself more time to do the things that are coming in the future. Does this rationale sound familiar to anyone else?
If so, remind yourself today that you are enough – just as you are.